someone asked about him, my dad.. he is once my dad but now not. i had forgive you but i can never forget what you done to us, my family. the pain, the sorrow, the tears and the blood. but from all your doing.. i learn, understand and know that i cant be someone like you. screw up, fucked up lousy man, lousy dad and lousy husband.. from that i know and must be a better man. a good man, good dad and good husband. i will never learn your teaching of violence, yelling, impatience and unreasonable. i can never respect you as well and that is the reason i have changed my name you given me. if only i can change the blood that run in my veins.. i will change. i do not want anything from you.
anyway im happy now.. even work and study is so busy and sometime is so troublesome.. but i know she always there.. at times i picture her smiles.. it make me smile.. she is all i have. i wish, hope and want her happy always. why and what the reason? no why and no reason.. i simply just love her.. that's all, that simple.
p.s. i love you.. always..
- 11/25/2011 10:51:00 PM