cursedblood

2012-01-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

maybe all this while the problem lies on me.. is me that not good enough for you.. just stubbornly hold on to you.. making you suffer from all this kind of pain and sorrow.. i can't even assure myself i'm the one for you when i can't even make you smile and not reliable for you to share your problem with me.. maybe this is why you didn't want to share you things with me since the past..

2012-01-13T11:35:00.001+08:00

Why thing doesn't seems to be better and it getting worse! What went wrong is something I do not like to hear cos of working issue but seriously what went wrong between us? Or is it really dying? Seriously no matters how much I wanna to be with you and have future with you but there's something keep holding me back which is thing like now.. This kind of situation hold me back.. It might seems a big issue but what if in the future bigger major issue happen? Is it just too fragile?

2012-01-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

my all time favorite

萧敬腾 - 新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
xin ruo juan liao, lei ye gan le
这份深情难舍难了
zhe fen shen qing, nan she nan liao
曾经拥有天荒地老
ceng jing yong you, tian huang di lao
已不见你暮暮与朝朝
yi bu jian ni, mu mu yu zhao zhao

这一份情永远难了
zhe yi fen qing, yong yuan nan liao
愿来生还能再度拥抱
yuan lai sheng, hai neng zai du yong bao
爱一个人如何厮守到老
ai yi ge ren, ru he si shou dao lao
怎样面对一切我不知道
zen yang mian dui yi qie, wo bu zhi dao

Chorus:
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
hui yi guo qu, tong ku de xiang si wang bu liao
为何你还来拨动我心跳
wei he ni huan lai bo dong wo xin tiao
爱你怎么能了
ai ni zen mo neng liao
今夜的你应该明了
jin ye de ni ying gai ming liao
缘难了情难了
yuan nan liao qing nan liao

2012-01-01T12:45:00.000+08:00

i started my blog 2007 and from then the blog cover sorrow over joy.. i somehow read though. i think i'm still very naive and dumb..

2011-12-31T21:05:00.000+08:00

Celine Dion - All by Myself

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
When I dial the telephone
Nobody's home

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
All by myself
Anymore

When I was young
I never needed anyone
Making love was just for fun
Those days are gone

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
Oh
Don't wanna live
By myself, by myself
Anymore
By myself
Anymore
Oh
All by myself
Don't wanna live
I never, never, never
Needed anyone

2011-12-31T20:23:00.001+08:00

this year 2011.. is bad for me.. all the downs hit on me and i stand alone to put thing back together.. tough.. tired and so? next year 2012? nothing will be different, it be as suck as bad.

p.s. what went wrong between us?

2011-12-27T23:00:00.001+08:00

i feel we are distance again. i feel i don't know anything about you now. we are standing on our own post and you are facing your problem and I'm facing my. our communication seems to get poor or could i say our communication was good and it only last for a moment. i wish i could be the one and i feel i can never reach to be your one. is so far. how i closer the distance, it somehow get more far. i wish you could be the one and i could be yours.

i happen read this.. "right time, wrong guy. right guy, wrong time." am i happen to be at the right time but I'm the wrong guy? and the right guy came but at the wrong time for you.

p.s. what happen to us? is become so much different.. even after all ups and downs.. have it strengthen? or is still as fragile?

2011-12-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

surprise to karyn. epic face from her. a plan from roy. surprise plan perfectly done.

2011-12-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

2 more days, 1 more night. the day will reach us.

2011-12-21T00:41:00.001+08:00

Tonight dinner seems fun yet stressful. Yes even though there's laughter here and there but there's silent as well. Is all the company this way? I think my PR need to be polish.. That's all for tonight.. Good night

p.s. soon the day will come..

2011-12-18T12:23:00.000+08:00

a party fun last night. simple drink drank drunk? but didnt get drunk. think i get myself loosen abit. although it didnt help much.. just hope to have more. tonight JB attack~!!

p.s. i love you..

2011-12-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

my blogging session is getting less. only limited time i have. reservist finish and exam end. 2012 Jan, my class will start again. i'm starting to feel tired of my job. i'm not sick about it.. but extremely tired.. i wonder how my seniors manage to endure.. plenty of unreasonable deadline.. i wonder have i give up or i'm struggling thru with my smiles..

last night i dream, i had cancer and is a brain cancer.. and when i got up.. i wonder why am i at home and not the hospital. then i realize it was a dream. i wasn't afraid, just didn't wanna to leave without seeing those i wanna to see.

p.s. i love you.. soon is our 4 years.

2011-11-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

someone asked about him, my dad.. he is once my dad but now not. i had forgive you but i can never forget what you done to us, my family. the pain, the sorrow, the tears and the blood. but from all your doing.. i learn, understand and know that i cant be someone like you. screw up, fucked up lousy man, lousy dad and lousy husband.. from that i know and must be a better man. a good man, good dad and good husband. i will never learn your teaching of violence, yelling, impatience and unreasonable. i can never respect you as well and that is the reason i have changed my name you given me. if only i can change the blood that run in my veins.. i will change. i do not want anything from you.

anyway im happy now.. even work and study is so busy and sometime is so troublesome.. but i know she always there.. at times i picture her smiles.. it make me smile.. she is all i have. i wish, hope and want her happy always. why and what the reason? no why and no reason.. i simply just love her.. that's all, that simple.

p.s. i love you.. always..

2011-11-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

Bruno Mars - It Will Rain

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my leaves are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin' out the door.

Chorus:
Cause there'll be no more sunlight
if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds,
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
walkin' with that troublesome guy

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Oooh well little darlin' watch me change their minds
Yea for you I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
That'll make you mine

Chorus:
Cause there'll be no more sunlight
if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds,
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

I'll do the same
goodbye, don't just say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
That'll make it right

Chorus:
Cause there'll be no more sunlight
if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds,
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain.

2011-11-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

this few weeks feel kinda down.. i feel my work.. no morale and no achievement.. but lucky is i have you with me.. if not i might get depress.. which is impossible.. i know somewhere there's light shining.. i just need to follow that paths.. and one day i will reach the point.

p.s. i love you!

2011-11-11T20:40:00.001+08:00

Studying and working somehow use up most of my time. I've missed many things.. I guess. But no pain no gain! And what I gain might be more income? Or maybe not. End of the day, it still depend on how I work? Day and day pass so fast.. So fast till I fear "tomorrow" but never forget tomorrow is always a gift. Every "tomorrow" you might learn something, see something and etc. Cherish today, treasure tomorrow.

P.s. I love you. I cherish every moment I have w you.

2011-11-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so tired. don't know what happen. just so tired. like over tired even a day of rest wasn't enough. physical and mentally tired. guess i need a short break or maybe drink drank and skip the drunk part. been really awhile since i touch my game. even how much i want to play, i know i have thing to do so i stop myself. i don't earn big bucks but why i have limited time. gosh~ tired! only there's a beer or on the rock for me now~

p.s. i love you

2011-10-29T00:20:00.000+08:00

it been awhile since the last post. days have been very busy but i will not forget to blog once awhile. if i could update everyday, i will. i'm happy i have a ultimate buddy who always be there for me.. whenever i need someone to talk to, he always there. i gave him a nick "tom" as i'm jerry. somehow my other few buddies seems to be having their so called "own life" and "busy life". i always remember what my eldest brother said.. friends you can have many.. but buddy.. a few will be enough.. whenever you need them, they will be there for you. of cos the buddies which is having busy life and own life will be there whenever i need them.. but tom is always there~ seriously im glad i know them. of cos there's one i hardly meet him now. he has his own family and life. i do not wish to get into it also.. if there a chance to meet, i will meet him. another one busy with school and part time job, dont even have time for girlfriend.. but sometime we meet up for "lim teh" session after his night part time work.. of cos i have my idiotic girlfriend.. lovely, sweet and hot.. i always have many to say to her but words could never appear when i see her.. i guess at times i still do feel shy in front of her. many ups and downs, didnt give up on each other.. which somehow make us where we are now.. i'm glad to have her or i could say.. having her could be my happiest thing ever happened in my life.. i love you..

p.s. i love you.. i will be a better man.. pamper and love you more each and everyday.

2011-10-17T23:42:00.001+08:00

Sorry baby.. If only I can be faster then We could cuddle.. You looked so tired today.. Whole week of work and a day of screaming.. I hope u having a good rest now.. Currently my place too small and even when I moved is still small.. I wish I could give you a hug.. Anyway hope u sleep well. A very good night to you..

P.s. I love you..

2011-10-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

i guess every men on earth will feel a same responsible. or maybe not every but almost every.. cos my vanish dad is one irresponsible one. i do not want to end up like him.. i want to be a better man..

p.s. i love you.. dont worry.. i did told you everything.. =D

2011-09-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

i did a mistake. i forgot to inform other colleagues and miscommunication. i wonder why my senior can handle it well and i cant. if she can, it mean i can handle it well too. but i wanna to use the shortest time to achieve the capability. yes even i have my senior to fall on but is still stressful. i hope one of my colleague could understand.. and yes i just started like nearly 2 months.. but it seems like im not in any help at all. yah may sound impossible but never try your very best or more the your very best, how would you know you cant do it? break the limit!

p.s. i love you

2011-09-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

work has been getting tougher and tougher.. and i need to be faster and faster.. still too slow.. i dont know.. is them to judge.. if im slow to them then i need to be faster.. now i understand. is a different level of tasks. memory need to be a lot better.. brain cant be dead in morning anymore. turbo? no. need to be faster than turbo.. need to add NOS, turbo and engine of an airplane. jia you bah.. work smart and hard to get a better future.. long way to go.. im still far from the spot at work and also far from the future that i wish to have.. money speaks the loudest now.. money.. money.. money.. FUCK UP!

p.s. i love you..

2011-09-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

it been 9 days since i last blog. been very busy at work.. just finish my exam last wednesday and next week school start.. when will i be able to enjoy my life? haha i also realize it been a few months since i last drink (hardcore).. maybe no one are able to drink with me.. nowadays really feel like drinking, dont know why also. just hope to drink to relax.. gaming now only make feel slightly relax.. anyway hope to have a better tomorrow. GAMBATTE!!

p.s. i love you..

2011-09-11T12:15:00.000+08:00

this year happened too many thing.. good and bad.. somehow i felt lucky.. making the choice of not giving up..~ fight for your soul mate.. you are my only soul mate.. bad thing.. maybe is a way to strength our relationship? anyway i love you!

p.s. i love you.. my only one soul mate.

2011-09-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

is sept now. time really flies.. soon 2011 will come to an end.. somehow i manage to climb a little higher this year.. or can i say i'm just replacing a empty slot in the company.. anyway better than nothing.. just keep working hard and do all my very best to achieve. i hope to see a future for us.. work is getting busier and busier.. i hope i can learn as much as possible so i can be a help for my superior..

soon it will be our 4 years.. many shits happened but of cos there happy times as well.. we struggle thru so much.. i seriously hope we can make it thru and get a life together..

p.s. i love you

2011-08-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

busy with gym and school and also work.. but lucky all of this i still have time for you. soon going to exam. it been really long time since i last drink. i think the last time is May? went to karyn house and drink with her brother and some friends.. now i drink water and water.. and coke zero. haha.. life is just getting more and more boring..

p.s. i love you..

2011-08-10T22:32:00.002+08:00

i fear you stop loving me
i fear you will leave me
i fear thing will happen again

it just happened again and again
it became my phobia

p.s. i love you.. are you sure you love me?

2011-08-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

what went wrong?

p.s. i love you.. how deep? definitely more than loving myself.

2011-08-07T23:15:00.001+08:00

peace

2011-08-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

is weekends again.. i hope i learn new thing at work. been so busy till im kinda lost at work.. anyway i guess i can work well. i passed my exam. im glad i hope my coming one will pass as well.. i do not wanna to disappoint myself. all the best to myself.. myself is all i have..

can a war win without capital?
just being nice to your soldiers can you win?
a war without capital mean without food no provide..
how will your soldiers fight for you.. that's my thoughts..
if i cant earn, i can never provide and win..
maybe from the start i had already lost the whole battle.

does the sparks really comes back? or just a a moments of flash?

p.s. i love you.. how long will it last? will it be everlasting?

2011-07-27T23:42:00.004+08:00

cheap, tasty and look good, kind of food.. everyone will rush for it.

expensive, tasty and look good, kind of food.. everyone think twice about it.

but

everyone eye on good looking and wealthy guys/girls.

and only some.. that very few will eye on good looking and nice yet not wealthy guys/girls.

this show.. reality is cruel.. how can we survive..? is this fair or unfair..? i guess reality can never be fair..

p.s. i love you.. reality might bring us apart.. which i do not wish for it to happen..

2011-07-24T01:28:00.003+08:00

busy week. little time to do many thing.. so many thing was not settle. getting more and more tired each day.. lack of sleep.. just wanna to fill with everything and don't wish to think about any.. even though is not fun or enjoyable.. life went mono.. bored and busy.. nothing seems exciting in life anymore.. anyway having a serious diet. veg veg veg.. less rice less fats and stay fit..

p.s. i love you.. wild thoughts need to be stop due to lack of faith

2011-07-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

one gundo went and two gundos came back.. pity the other one that got infected.. hahaa anyway glad they are back safely.. they must be having hell out of fun over there.. this week have been a busy week.. even im kinda slack in office. thing is somehow done.. have been lot of thoughts this week.. good that i have my boxing anime to keep me off from stress.. or i might KO from those thoughts.. negative and positive thoughts.. somehow negative strike me harder than positive.. guess im losing my confident again.. but i guess i have the courage to strike back the negative.. hope things will turn out to be fine..

p.s. i love you.. it wasn't easy like a game..

2011-07-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

aim for this year is lasik! hahaa hopefully i can manage to save up and go for lasik! tired of specs.. went to pedro website.. OMG so many nice shoes.. eh.. but guess currently i cant buy them. lasik come first for the moment. 2nd is my license.. hopefully i can get it.. if cant also never mind. next year! =D this year i wanna to achieve as many thing as possible.. WOSH! ALL THE WAY~ tattoo?? maybe can put on hold this.. fitness.. i coming to you again~ DIET FITNESS DIET FITNESS~

p.s. i love you

2011-07-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

The Final Chapter? I guess I need to improve more.. so i can held what i been holding and continue the long run. I cant tell what the future bring.. i dare not to hope as well.. a step by a step..

p.s. i love you..

2011-07-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

there's always something that lost and hard to get it back..

p.s. i love you

2011-06-28T22:31:00.002+08:00

diet diet diet!
slim down slim down slim down!
keep fit keep fit keep fit!
determine determine determine!
i can make it!

p.s. i love you..

2011-06-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

was damn tired today. somehow during work.. my brain was not with me. forget everything.. anyway it's been 3 years and 6 months.. is like flash but didnt felt it happen last night.. i just feel after so long and think back.. we did went through the ups and downs but that doesnt mean no more ups and downs will hit us again.. there's still ups and downs, here and there.. we need to have better understanding and compromise with each other.. long way to go i guess..

p.s. i love you..

2011-06-21T19:05:00.003+08:00

disappointment. upset.

p.s. i love you

2011-06-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

finish my exam and i can relax now but soon school gonna start.. no much of resting.. is in top speed.. what good about this is graduate damn fast.. bad thing is.. i feel is kinda tough.. kinda like it cause it not wasting my time.. anyway i hope everything is fine.. just having bad feelings about thing gonna happen or whatsoever..

p.s. i love you.. hope it lasts.. till end of time..

2011-06-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

busy week again. no time to blog. hahaaa tiring week also. Monday i'm having management exam.. suck.. hope sat and sun i can study finish. somehow this week is not a good week. im kinda moody in a way.. anyway good night.. gonna sleep and study tomorrow.

p.s. i love you.. .. .. ..

2011-06-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

exam soon.. and also very rush one. lesson end plus a revision class then exam. study week? nope.. is a super duper fast pace part time study. time management need to be good. otherwise you might knock out for project and exam.. the timing they give is just nice not more not less.. is tough.. hahahaa hope i can do well or rather just a pass i be glad.. don't want to ask too much.. =)

p.s. i love you.. good night

2011-06-05T22:11:00.000+08:00

i don't know is it the right choice but i think i can't wait any longer. now there's a chance i better grab it.. i do not want to wait anymore.. tired of waiting. i will take it up and do what i can.. learn what i can as well.

p.s. i love you..

2011-06-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

in office.. im shag.. in school even more shag.. after school go for jogging.. totally shag.. timing suck.. guess it been awhile since my so called "hardcore workout" hahahaa anyway diet and slimming session begin! wooh~

i get back my project result.. was shock that i did not bad.. hahaa!!

p.s. i love you..

2011-05-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

recently i felt so so tired! even i had long hours of rest but somehow i feel my mind is still running wild except for my body.. only my body is resting but my mind not. had an hour of jogging just now. feel so refreshing! my body full of energy.. jog non stop.. all the way and this round i jog further than before! woo~ feel damn power up! anyway every monday, wednesday and friday i must go jogging! hahahaaa~ slim slim slim~ eat less less less~ sugar less less less!! fat gone gone gone!! hahahaaa =D

p.s. i love you!

2011-05-26T21:52:00.001+08:00

recently didnt really update my blog. anyway was busy but guess is somehow not that busy anymore.. mind went wild recently.. i dont know why also.. er.. she told me this when we are waiting for Jessie.. some just have the life of being easy in work and some just working tough at work and hard to gain.. it might be true.. snake and ladder, i guess im suck at it.

p.s. i love you.. so deep im afraid i lose you

2011-05-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

a short get away to KL for 4 days and 3 nights with rofino, jun feng and you. it was really relax.. didn't think about work and bla bla bla.. also able to cuddle with you 3 nights long. enjoy my bathtub session as well. is ultimate! didn't buy many thing.. just some accessories, a shirt, a jacket and a pair of shoes. picture can be seen in Facebook. lazy to upload to blogger as it taking too much time. have a chill and drama session in the hotel room.. having Chivas and coke.. so damn relax.. but relaxing days just pass so fast. i'm back in town.. back to reality.. have to think of work, money and life. at KL i look to the mirror and saw a few white hair! i was oh my god.. anyway had fun and so called know a new friend.. that friend is introduce by Jun Feng. she brought us around.. thanks for her help so we can manage to go so many places. =D

p.s. i love you~ 3 nights of cuddle is never enough.. only enough will be cuddling you every nights till the rest of my life.

2011-05-20T02:03:00.000+08:00

going to KL in a few hours time~ oh by the way i watched "Priest" it was a straight forward movie.. action not bad but ending kinda bad. after all is still alright i would say watch online or whatever.. not really worth the money though. okay back to KL thingy.. kinda excited. hope i didnt forget to bring anything.. ok.. project i hope we do well.. seriously not enough time i feel but holiday i shall not worry about it! =D

p.s. i love you! LET'S ENJOY TTM

2011-05-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

been busy with my management project. wah is time killing. time so short. anyway what scare me most is last night i was doing my project.. once i finish and saved my project.. about to send to my group mate.. my com hang and die on me!! but good thing.. i have Xek.. i asked him and see what i can do to revive it..!! and NOW IS ALIVE AGAIN!! WOOSH~~ by the way Xek is a friend of mine.. not some robot or whatever. so happy!!! and KL trip here we come.. eh.. is on friday though but im kinda excited about it and especially i just revive my comp!

p.s. i love you.. guess your prayer do help~ if you did pray~ hahaa

2011-05-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

had dinner with her and her sister. elections talk is the trendy topic for this month.. i suppose.. anyway that not what im gonna say.. im gonna say about my work.. i realize when CN didnt come to work, i can work better.. of cos she have to be there to make decision but somehow im kinda sick of her nag or maybe it seems like im too "SLOW" for her.. what is your fast! im trying to pick up my pace because i helped EL and i had no choice but to do. im aint superman or 8 arms human.. i have a brain and two arms. now im not helping EL anymore.. i will speed up but you need to give me time. i have many backlog need to clear.. who help me when im fucking helping EL. you think that so call "priority" work? is just bullshit. im just kinda unhappy about your fuck shit attitude recently that's all.. hope you can understand this bullshit.. i get my job done, you happy and im happy. that's it.. unhappy stuff.. now the happy news.. next friday~ wosh.. and this saturday.. wosh~ drink all i want and play all i need.. WOSH~~~~ love weekends even though i need to go school.. but is still a REST DAY!! no telephone ring and no email to read! of cos.. there's you.. especially you.. i can receive your hugs and kisses on WEEKENDS.. oops i guess i forget someone in my list.. the no.2 you know who you are.. even though we "bu shou" but i enjoy the chat we have.. tsk!

p.s. i love you.. =)

2011-05-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

been a busy week~~ even on weekends.. omg.. im so dead tired last night.. from 9pm KO till 9am.. it has been awhile since i had a long long rest... work.. school.. project.. and my life.. of cos never miss out my baby~ and also my part time.. and chiachia.. hahaaa! anyway i hope to finish my project by early next week!! dont wanna to to drag any longer.. wanna to have some drinking session after my project~~ hahahaa~ been awhile since the last time.. party also.. ahhh.. no time to do all this.. hahahaa~ oooh gonna watch out my diet.. even though i been saying but like nothing happen~!! THIS TIME MUST BE FIRM AND MAKE IT HAPPEN!! WOSH~~

p.s. i love you

2011-04-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

wish we can be better and keep on going.. also wish everything could be simple.. but yup reality is no simple.. already school for three weeks.. this week is the third.. was easy.. but today lesson.. i was kinda blur.. i guess my brain shut off for awhile.. nearly to the end i manage to understand again.. =D

p.s. i love you!

2011-04-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

another unhappy Tuesday.. i guess this week is a unhappy week for me.. and i guess that's is why.. life can never be like a game..

p.s. i love you..

2011-04-25T22:25:00.001+08:00

unhappy Monday

p.s. i love you..

2011-04-17T21:42:00.004+08:00

today finish the game and weather is freaking hot also.. drain up every energy i have in me.. make me damn damn tired. like omg.. anyway next week need to study.. or should say just read through bah. anyway every lesson is like rushing.. like there not enough time.. hopefully i can handle..

p.s. i love you~!

2011-04-17T12:03:00.001+08:00

today is "Monster Hunter-ing again.. after today might stop hunter-ing for awhile.. blackie need to study for exam and maybe after that we start again. =D

we gonna whack a monster name "Amatsumagatsuchi" the longest name monster in the whole game~ look kinda holy dragon..

Amatsumagatsuchi

that's all for the morning post.. tonight will continue again~

p.s. i love you~

2011-04-16T11:10:00.000+08:00

you are the only one i want and need.. also the most important person in my life..

p.s. i love you

2011-04-08T00:51:00.001+08:00

this week is very busy again!! no time to blog home late recently. plus i fall sick on monday! fever fever.. hahahaa! now i understand why in game cant have 2 jobs/class in a character.. cos it will be unbalance.. the sub job/class will always be the weaker.. im having that situation now. but the main job becoming to help my AGM more than my actual job...anyway in someway i learn a lot which is good but seriously not enough time for many tasks.. i will speed up more.. so catch up.. wosh!!

anyway i suppose we are back on track now.. im really glad we are. =D i hope we can get better and keep on going together.. =D jia you!

p.s. i love you! <3

2011-04-02T03:14:00.000+08:00

this week have been a fast, busy and tiring week. i guess it goes same to my baby.. maybe not fast to her but is busy and tiring.. hope she get her beauty rest..

sometime i envy those that married at young age.. but there's one i dont envy.. on the surface it seems like a prison for him.. and the prison officer is her.. certain time is only his visit period which mean for him to meet his own friends.. i dont know how their marriage like.. as from the surface it look that way.. and they dont understand each other well enough.. lack of communication and sharing.. i felt relationship or marriage shouldn't be much of a different.. yes you marry but doesn't mean everything MUST change.. yes you just need to commit more but being loving and sweet it should remain.. and doesn't mean marry = no friends outing. anyway i hope they to have better understanding and communicate.. one more give and take.. maybe i have not marry so i might not know much.. that is how i felt.. =)

p.s. i love you.. love cuddling with you.. =D

2011-03-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

was kinda busy week. work and fun and slacking.. =b we are getting better and i wish and hope we can make it better and better and stronger and stronger.. =D baby i love you.. i believe we are able to have the future together.. and live well.. =D

p.s. i love you..

2011-03-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

Watched "I am number 4" with you. Was a last min movie as we have nothing else to do. Just as I predicted. I have much to say but don't know to start with. Maybe now this blog have only my love for you and not worries or complain.

p.s. I love you

2011-03-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

there's many in my head but i dont know how or what to express it out.. i felt so tired.. work.. and bla bla bla.. even i only believe that fate in all control by our own self but i feel im about to get out of control of it.. anyway i guess just let nature take it course.. i can only treasure the present.. dare not think to far.. maybe i just afraid.. tomorrow i be on leave and is her birthday but she only on half day.. i will be doing my school stuff.. hopefully can be done with it.. thursday gonna go to school and finish everything.. and await for the start.. a new beginning? i hope so..

p.s. i love you.. do you?

2011-03-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

you had your wonderful party last night. hope you love the gifts.. i receive my letter of offer from PSB. Wednesday gonna do the payment. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you.

p.s. i love you..

2011-03-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

soon will be your bday party.. hope you will enjoy that night and one year older. hahahaa time really flies.. sometime i feel it just too fast.. and sometime it just too slow.. and soon i will be studying also. i want to bring myself to next level. i'm pushing myself.. work smart and work hard to get the result and have what i want. wish myself all the best.. and this relationship i having.. i hope we can strengthen it make it strong.. we can do it..!

p.s. i love you~

2011-03-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

is a saturday and im home the whole day to slack and also recover from the coughing.. not bad to slack at home the whole day.. can relax.. watch all the anime and series i haven been watching.. but too bad everyone home.. i prefer alone at home.. at least i can turn the speaker louder.. =b hope you enjoy yourself outside..

p.s. i love you..

2011-03-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

i'm very sick.. each cough i had, it trigger my headache.. then i feel kinda giddy. hahaa not a problem can still endure.. never ending task at work.. kinda upset about this news when you told me Fann somehow manage to so call promote? did i not do enough? anyway just see how thing goes..

p.s. i love you.. good night..

2011-03-08T23:42:00.002+08:00

wosh! finally receive CDAC letter. is approve.. STUDY IM COMING TO WHACK YOU~! hahaaa i gonna study and do all my best. jia you jerry~!! i can make it~ WOSH~!! good night. this world seems fine tonight..

p.s. i love you.. i will double up and catch up. to be your "one"

2011-03-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

today is my first day that i need to help my AGM.. and three buyers.. PA cum coordinator.. work increase pay didnt but never mind. take this chance to learn.. see how the budget and the sales planning. i will shine brighter and brighter that you cant miss me.

yup what you say did affect but i have learn to take it calmly and not picking a fight. it dont help and only make thing worse.. i still wanna to hold on and believe to have you back.

p.s. i just simply love you.. there no deeper or so much.. as is already whole hearted in love with you.

2011-03-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

you start to call me babe.. i suppose we are really really back on track.. im glad we manage to get back on track.. and i hope we can strengthen our relationship.. we share all the good and bad together.. understand to make it better.. we can make it de!! JIA YOU!

p.s. i love you~ my words wont just be in good time.. good or bad times.. i still love you..

2011-03-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

p.s. i love you..

2011-03-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

finally i understand why my eldest brother tell me this when he married few years back.. he said "jerry.. i wont be home.. having my own family.. so look after the family.. anything give me a call." the reason behind i guess is.. my elder brother is not dependable.. irresponsible.. anyway at work also suck.. this week was just simply suck but good thing is my mum operation manage to get help from the social workers so dont need to pay.. now hope rental wont increase.. NEW HOUSE NEW HOUSE.. faster build up..!! is already march.. and soon i gonna study soon! i hope everything will goes fine.

i know it will affect us.. if is for long.. but i seriously hope things will get better~! i dont want and cant afford anything to affect us.. we just somehow manage to get better.. i wanna to keep it better and better!! let's jia you ok..

p.s. i love you.. good night

2011-02-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

I don't know what can I said but I'm just being unfortunate to be born in this family. But if I didn't, I won't have know you. I hope this will not affect us and I won't want it to happen.

P.s. I love you.

2011-02-27T01:09:00.000+08:00

i suppose we are getting better.. i will share my things with you and i hope you do too. let work together for the relationship and for our future.. jia you! im really happy that we can somehow get back on track and so called better.. WOSH~ =D i guess i smile in my sleep.

p.s. i love you. you are my everything

2011-02-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

Guess this time round I'm sick.. Feeling weak.. Hot and cold but still can endure just that I can't focus. Wonder how am I going to go work tomorrow.. I miss you, do u know? I miss u alot even I see u everyday.. Do u? Maybe no as we see each other everyday in office and weekends I keep u accompany.. I wish u do miss me so somehow we are still madly in love. I might be naive but that also mean I love whole hearted.. I need to rest now..

p.s. I love u.. Good night <3

2011-02-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

yes roy coming to meet me to pass me Iphone 3GS! WOSH~ good timing. my phone been hanging today.. omg~ going to bu tahan liao!! anyway today was kinda busy! mix and match the clothes for 2 hours!! is it very long for 6 sets of clothes? i think still ok.. as i doing for shoes, handbags and accessories~! omg hope CDAC approve my funding!! i cant wait to study! lol

p.s. i love you.. good night. all the best for you quiz tomorrow. muack!

2011-02-21T21:55:00.001+08:00

today nothing much.. was a simple day.. but need to rush my work till april. had a simple dinner.. really a simple day.. =D hope roy will meet me tonight and pass me the Iphone 3GS. hahahaaa!!

p.s. i love you.. i hope to stay with you~

2011-02-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

nothing much today. just a little tired.. hope is monday. working again.. monday blue!! i wonder does we change cos we know we need to improve or we get influence by others so we change? or there's no different? after all is still change.. things was different.. somehow i hope it can be how it used to.. i hope i know the answer already.

p.s. i love you.. good night.. been a tiring weekends for you! and glad you get good grade for both tests~

2011-02-20T11:20:00.000+08:00

it been a few days since i last update.. i might have answer already but i not sure about myself.. im just assuming the answer.. but i felt you are trying also.. jia you for both of us..!

p.s. i love you..

2011-02-16T22:56:00.004+08:00

what can i say? 44 days since then..

p.s. i love you.. good night

2011-02-15T22:56:00.000+08:00

was that a yes to continue? or you still dont know what you want.. and i also dont know what you want and what your answer. guess i still wait.. till your answer..

p.s. i love you

2011-02-15T11:12:00.001+08:00

karyn, chew ling and triston have leave Singapore for their exchange.. hope they will do fine. as all of them seems blur last night at airport. 5 months will pass fast and soon they be back. not long and not too short. about half a year gone. i wish them all the best and good luck!

i gave my V.Day gift and post card to her.. she look joyful when she saw the ring.. but next moment she say even got this ring also wont marry you and added no money. anyway i just hope you love it. don't ask how much. is a V.Day gift for you.. appreciate it and love it. i hope you do read the post card. what in there is all from me. i hope there be a answer..

p.s. i love you

2011-02-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

was today a dream? i suppose i'm not.. but why after all.. you still like back to dont touch me.. anyway i believe is improving~ i was damn damn happy.. dont know why just feel is getting better.. but hope is real..

p.s. i love you!!

2011-02-13T02:13:00.000+08:00

friday night went to karyn house to drinking again.. a farewell party for her.. we help her pack her luggage. rofino, you and me tried to make her clothes as pack as possible.. she brought SO many stuff.. but is ok she is a girl.. anyway after helping her we start our drinking session first. not long you already wanna to sleep before kryan come. anyway end of the night you didnt lost.. kryan puke. so consider you win. =D hahahaa anyway was a fun night.. didnt wanna to go more details.. btw i didnt sleep whole night WOSH~!

saturday morning.. chia chia didnt manage to wake up.. i woke him up.. end up karyn was the one awake and force him up.. i went to my trial test. omg i failed all the tests i took.. all 80plus marks 90 marks then consider pass.. =( after that i walk back to karyn house... hell man was a hot day and im lost.. walked too far in front.. reached her place and go for a swim as SUPER HOT day.. walked the whole day with kryan, lydia and karyn.. super tired.. hahaaa then nan jun last min called for Lan.. so i reach home not long.. set up my webcam.. and done with my testing.. was good~! hahahaa

i miss you. i wanna to text you but i worry you might be busy.. i miss you alot..!

p.s. i love you.. guess you are sleeping now.. sweet dreams.

2011-02-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

every look at you
make me wanna to hold you
make me wanna to hug you

people make me smile
but they don't make me happy like you did
can we just be happily in love

love in fairy tales was a lie
there's no happily ever after
but there's true love
is tough
is rough
there's many obstacles
we went through
get stronger
and in love
that's when happily ever after come in

happiness is free
but you can't get it by
cash
or
credit card
it only comes when you are in love truly..
with the one you love.. being together..
spending life with each other..
share all the laughter.. sorrows.. worries.. and tears..

2011-02-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

day and night i think of you
hours, minutes and seconds i think of you
you are my only one in my head

my love for you
i couldn't express it
so deep
too much
but yet simple
i love you

2011-02-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

i dream
i woke up
i realize
it was just a dream
i wish
i hope
i pray
it turn real
it was just a simple dream
i held your hand and in love
with each other.

2011-02-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

will it be a good news? but i wish for a better news. not from anyone but you. don't you feel it? we still in love.. we can make it stronger.. maybe you still need more time.. i suppose.. i understand.. went for a run.. i ran as fast as i can.. but it was just plain running.. was kinda shag after three rounds of fast run and a set of workout.. two months didn't run and workout.. is really tiring.. anyway is best to keep myself fit.. as my mind has weaken.. body gonna keep fit.. anyway that all.. good night

p.s. i love you.. sweet dreams.

2011-02-07T21:57:00.000+08:00

went for a run today.. ultra tiring... guess it was too long since the last run.. like 2 months. omg.. gonna pick my speed and stamina back.. work nothing much.. was too slack this couple of weeks. eh.. maybe i was kinda lost with the new arrangement.. anyway that's all for tonight.. good night..

p.s. i love you..

2011-02-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

today slack at home.. till dinner with you.. in bus fall asleep.. hope tonight i can fall asleep..

p.s. i love you

2011-02-06T13:15:00.001+08:00

i wish it was answer but it was just misses.. it was just dream.. i really miss all that.. every hugs and kisses..

p.s. i love you.. i miss every part and moment with you..

2011-02-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

went her place to visit.. her relative say i don't look dependable. her younger sister bf look more dependable.. is just from look.. didn't really affect me.. maybe i just have that playful and slacking look.. anyway nothing much to update or say..

p.s. i love you.. awaiting...

2011-02-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

went visiting today.. took a few ang bao.. anyway i just go straight to the part.. i manage to talk to her tonight.. even i know thing was fine.. was good and didnt wanna to ruin the CNY but i just want to talk to her.. i told her how it affected me. she said was stupid.. it might be stupid but you left it and i tried hard.. because of something that why it trigger my insecurity.. somehow i do feel stupid as you work, study and r/s thingy but i understand that.. facts was you felt our r/s was not as strong.. ok i always tell you my problem and share our burdens and we let work it out together and strengthen it again.. please. i didnt say that as i dont know how to work it out.. but i know if we try we can work it out somehow.. yes i say i give you time this time round.. you said you give me an answer.. i wont force you if you so call give up.. but this time i be persistent and hold on to you.. you said you love me want to be with me.. why dont we just work it out together? i really wish we can do it..

p.s. i love you.. i wish you still do.. really..

2011-02-03T01:19:00.002+08:00

i suppose i should say yesterday.. which is 2 Feb 2011 Wednesday.. is a boring day in office. i just using MSN and facebook the whole day. about end of the day.. have a good news but i need to wait for the director final approval.. is about my promotion.. i seriously happy but once i end work.. somehow the happiness is gone.. cos somehow i still lost someone.. i cant say lost also.. i just don't know what is it now or i don't know how should i put it. when on the way to my house, i wanna to hold your hand.. i wanna to hug you and lay a gentle touch on your face.. somehow i feel you will reject so i stop myself.. anyway end up i didn't do what i need to.. as i think let just have a happy chinese new year first.. good night to you..

p.s. i love you.. always..

2011-02-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

today you called me "baby" but the voice was soft and it seems like you wanna take back the word back to your lips.. is it because you used to call me that? or you really wanna to call me that but you stop yourself doing that..? you sent me a song.. that is a nice song.. hmmm.. i kinda speechless now. i wish we can work things out together.. i really do hope we can.. and not each at our own..

p.s. i love you.. good night!

2011-01-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

it seems like we're fine but fact was.. it wasn't.. my wonder was just a false thought.. i really wish i can hug you.. hold you hand.. and kiss you.. telling you that three simple words.. i love you..

i done my shopping.. but i didn't felt any better.. guess is useless to me.. gaming.. it didn't make me feel better.. rush my work.. it's didn't make me focus as well.. simply just only you in my mind..

p.s. i love you.. is still as deep as ever.. i just fall so deeply in love with you..

2011-01-31T00:32:00.000+08:00

things really cant undo. even though apologized but what done is done.. it only depends on can you forgive and forget.. currently i just wish time would turn back.. to how it used to.

p.s. i love you.. day by day.. awaiting..

2011-01-29T11:09:00.000+08:00

mad.. upset.. disappointed.. confuse.. lost.. pain.. in life what kind of pain, hurt the most?

2011-01-29T01:54:00.000+08:00

it just affect me. i guess it was a bad day for me. my temper hit the limit. ultra upset with fire burning inside.. i do not know how to express it out. i suppose is very very difficult for one sided.. i strike and i push.. it just wont make any different..

p.s. i love you and still miss you.. but everything is no longer like how it used to..

2011-01-28T10:09:00.000+08:00

last night i heard you call me babe.. i was "wah shiok and happy" but i guess was maybe you used to it. i wish is real but i suppose no.. on leave today.. =D gonna do what i need to do today!

2011-01-28T02:04:00.000+08:00

today very relax. as in thursday i mean. nothing much to do as i done most of my stuff.. ok.. before i left office heard a good + bad news. my ex manager asked me to be buyer (which is so called promotion) as one of the buyer just resign. yes is a replacement but is also a rare opportunities.. 70% of me say "Go, why not? you can do it well.. trust your strength" 30% of me say no "is it wise to do so? am i dreaming? could i still study?" asked for advice.. all say go ahead.. even if the manager is suck~.. i seriously cant wait to be promote not becos of tweety and you get to become.. is i feel i have the ability to do it already.. and my current post is just too little for me.. i know i can do more and even better! yes, i don't know what the buyer task is~ but i will ask and learn and learn and learn.. i just wanna to be better! and yes in way it seems im not pushing as my current post what can i push? become a senior? no i not aiming to be a senior. BUYER is my aim..! or maybe i should say merchandising was just a stepping stone for me.. anyway just hope all the best for me~! jia you to me and you~!

p.s. i miss you.. i love you..